my birthday is my target date to look perfect. or as close to perfect as i can get.

yesterday, i visited a dermatologist and got several recommendations for evening out my skin tone and making it look younger. i’ve come to a few conclusions:
1. wash my face more often with either benzoyl peroxide or salicylic acid.
2. use of alpha- and beta-hydroxy acids (eucerin for my body, turnarouond creme for my face)

weightloss should be relatively low-key:
1. drink more water
2. only one soda a day that either is diet or has no high fructose corn syrup, and only after i’ve had more than one liter of water.
3. take my vitamins on a more regular basis (those who remember to take their gingko don’t need to take it).
4. only eat when i’m hungry, not to excess (but i loooove excess eating!), and choose healthier options (no more cherry garcía??).
5. cow-orker and i are going to go for walks during our lunch breaks. twice around the school is one mile. that’s doable.
6. evening walks, and not passing out after i’ve eaten.

i’m not going to be obsessive over it, but i’m looking forward it being a skinny bitch again.

orisinal is a very dangerous site.

the big three:

weight: 20 pounds in six months. i’ll settle for 10.
money: just save, dammit.
work: work my way up. i have a five year plan. stick to it.

monday, december 19th, 2005, i start my skinny bitch diet. my sister’s wedding is in six months. i’m almost 140 pounds. my goal is to lose 20 pounds in six months. i can do that.

my general problem with most diets that i’ve gone on is that i made things unattainable. i’m going to do things in slow and easy ways. my eating habbits are pretty healthy, but i tend to eat too much. portion control is something i can do. and i’ll take walks during my breaks when i get back to work. cut down on my sugar and candy intake (fruit is better than candy anyway). low fat foods. i can do this. and be sane at the same time.

but tonight, i gorge.

my brother, sunshine, his heterosexual life partner, and i were sitting around thinking about archaic words. not quite sitting around thinking of archaic words–it came about logically. i started singing “thus spake zarathustra”, and life partner asked, where’d that come from, and after i told him, asked, “is spake a word?”. which led me to look it up, and say, “yes, it’s an archaic form of ’spoke’”. which led us to other archaic words.

spake
whence
any more?